finally finding the greatest person you've ever been with is amazing. he becomes your best friend and you don't know what you would do without him. knowing very well during the internship you can't date. so we had 3 more months. or so we thought...
then you find out it has to end now. because they said so. and God is calling you to ireland. so you have to tell him. you cry and you fight with God over it. you're crying so hard it hurts and then you know that God is obviously right. so you tell him. he supports you in your decision and that makes it almost harder.
cause then it just proves how great he is for you. but God is giving you this great opportunity and if God can DIE for me i can live for Him. even if that means putting on hold dating the one guy that is actually perfect for you.
so what now? i wait. anxiously. to hear for sure about the internship.
and with him? i can't see him. its like it never happened. he was my best friend and i can't wait until i can be with him again. one year and counting...
i will miss you.
already do.
x
