My Letter to Jesus

Dear Jesus:

Congratulations! You've just received a new furry faced addition to your kingdom, she always thought she was a lion. But I feel I should warn you that she comes with a lot of responsibility:

-she only likes the smelliest wet food there is
-she goes in the fridge for up to 15 minutes (set the timer, you'll forget, believe me(
-she only wants to be petted when she wants you to pet her
-let her run her whiskers through the brush every now and then, makes her feel special
-she likes to watch tv as she dozes off, don't worry she'll watch whatever you're watching
-she purrs constantly, I don't think she ever really knew what purring meant
-she likes to go outside, except now we wish she didn't
-but she'll come back, and then want to go back out, then come back
-she likes to drink your milk from your bowl after you eat your cereal, don't worry thought she's patient and will wait for you to finish
-we always allowed her on the table when dad wasn't around, gives it  thrill for when he is around and she sneaks up there and we all act like its a shock
-if she wonders in your room and starts to stare out the window, don't question it, thats just her
-if there is sun shining in on a floor somewhere, you can bet your angels she'll be in it sprawled out as far as her muscles will allow her
-when you take your garments out of the dryer let her lay on them, she likes the warmth
-and when you're making your bed she will hide under the sheets, just continue your business and she'll purr for you
-leave bags out for her to hop on and crawl in, she's weird
-if you find fluff balls or sardine toys laying around, don't move them, she talks to them at night as if we all can't hear her, it was the cutest thing ever
-when you come home and she's asleep, she doesn't mind getting woken up for a hug, cause she'll fall right back to sleep after you've gotten your fix
-she can jump up to high places but will meow until you come get her down, she's like a cow, she can go up but can't come down
-she's not a huge shedder so don't worry too much bout that
-around Christmas time we used to like to put tape on her paws and watch her walk around all freaked out
-don't forget to remind her to send Winston holiday cards

and please don't forget how much we love and will miss our baby. take good care of her and keep her fluffy. i know her and Felix are together again. and I am excited for the day I get to join them in Heaven with You sir.

Forever yours
Megan

Timing

let's get real here for a moment. we all know that timing is everything.

whether its going to the movies.
driving somewhere.
getting in line at the store.
or meeting someone.

but what happens when that timing gets interrupted? or what you thought was good timing just turned out to be coincidental?

some things we can't plan..they just happen for us. that's God's timing. and that's when you know it's the right timing.

but how sucky is it when all of a sudden that timing isn't good anymore. like you got a taste of what it feels like to be happy again only to be reminded that it has to end.

and let's talk about how unfair it can be sometimes. you feel like you've lost someone forever then right when you feel as if you might emotionally die they fall right back into your life again. sure you know what its like to live every day without them but why does that have to happen again?

so why can't timing always be right?
or why can't things always work out how WE want them.

well my friends..its because its all apart of God's plan. and that's the only way i am able to sleep at night these days...

these next few months are the start to a whole new beginning...and its timing may not be right for some aspects of my life but for others its perfect....

and let's be honest...God knows what he's doing...even when we don't...

sweet dreams my friends
tomorrow is a new day
=]

Mother's Day

today i want to thank my mom for all she's done...like the time she...
showed me that everything will eventually go on sale
and if it doesn't that there will always be more money
or the time she let me go by myself on trips
because she knew i'd learn from it

thanks also for
allowing me to be independent
but always being there when i needed my mommy

for being there for me when the boy i loved decided he didn't love me anymore

for always being at my beckoning call
whether it was 10 o'clock and i needed my light turned off
or 6 am and i'd just had a bad dream
there was always room for me in the bed

and also for always allowing me to be the DJ in the car
and listening to whatever music i chose

thank you for listening to me sob about high school
and kicking me in the butt in college to "just pass"

thank you for taking me shopping whenever i needed to just get away
which was always
and you always paid

you are my best friend
and was there when all my friends weren't there for me
and boys were being dumb
which will never end
so i hope you're ready for that
because i never seem to be

there are a lot more things i could say
but basically thank you very everything you've done for me in the last 20 years
and thank you for everything you will do
the next years to come
for as long as God allows me to have you here

best friends

est. March 8, 1991

Slow Motion

do you ever feel like life is moving in slow motion? like you're essentially treading water... doing a lot of work and not getting anywhere fast...

and then just like that
everything snowballs and changes...

your summer is planned. money is saved for college. life is looking great.

then one announcement stops everything. your biggest influences are leaving the state. you have to say goodbye in 5 weeks. and this ripples off to some other changes. ireland is effected, camps are effected and not to mention the students. whose faces dropped and i watched their tears through my own. i'll watch their boys grow up through pictures and keep in touch over the internet. it won't be the same but it'll have to do. and of course we've already planned road trips to see them.

so now i'm back to looking forward to the summer.
the countdowns continue.
just one more is added.
and its not one i wanted to see.

this whole semester life has been moving in slow motion and last night it shifted into high gear. less than 3 weeks i graduate from FJC. then less than 2 months i go back to Ireland. and less than 4 months i move to Costa Mesa.

at some point slow motion stops and real life sets in. as Blink 182 says "well i guess this is growing up"