Never Forget

today i did my devotional on Numbers 9:4-5, 9-12. when i saw it was in Numbers i groaned a little bit because as much as i am good and enjoy math.. doesn't mean i want to read about it in the Bible. but after reading the passages i started on the discussion part and it was interesting. the passage is talking about Passover and how that let the People of Israel not forget what God had done for them. so then i got to thinking about how many times we go to God for something new and think He owes us for whatever it is thats going wrong. we never remember that He has gotten us through so much already. i sat thinking about this past summer and i realized i had been focusing on what i had done for Him. when really my trips were suppose to be about what He did for me and the people we outreached to.

i know i made a difference this summer. that can sound as conceited as you want to take it but personally i know i did a good work for God this summer. but i am more proud to talk about what He did in my life. He showed me my passion and opened so many doors for me to go into ministry. i cleaned up my life and with His help was even able to let go of some people. and with that "spring cleaning" i was able to welcome new friends and people into my life. and right now in this moment i couldn't be happier with how my life is going. so many opportunities are opening up for me and its all thanks to God's work in me this summer.

so when we look back down "memory lane" let's try to remember what God did for us instead of tallying up our accomplishments first. because without His work in us we can't do work for Him.

the devotional also talked about having an object to remind us to thank God for what He has done and will do for us. mine is a shell from Nicaragua. it reminds me of my "God moments" i had there and it also reminds me to pray for the people of the islands there. i encourage everyone to have something like this and put somewhere you always see everyday. mine is on my iHome clock right by my bed. but here is what it looks like.

having these memories of God is so important to figuring life out a little easier. it won't be terribly easy but at least with God's help you'll never be alone.

A New Discovery

the day started with waiting. waiting for mallorie to come outside. waiting for the green light. waiting for parking to clear up. waiting for class to start. then waiting for it to be over. but somewhere in all that waiting i remember back to other times i've waited for something to happen..

like when i waited for the list to be put up for volleyball teams. or when i waited for jeremy to pick me up for the prom. waiting for my name to be called for high school graduation. back when we waited for the doctor's response. then waited for God's healing. since graduation i waited to hear a calling. listened into my heart to hear what God was saying. and since then its been a wait. this summer that wait ended. i heard my calling to youth ministry. and then i waited to hear how that would go into effect.

amidst all this God waiting i had personal waiting for someone to share this with. someone who understands my passion for youth. someone who would let me put God first. and then someone shows up and steals my heart.

and now we wait even more. wait to hear where God puts me. is it Ireland? or local..waiting always happens. i pray for the right direction and someday (soon?) i will get that answer.

Second Year, 3rd Semester

Well today was the first day of my second year at Fullerton College. My schedule is jam packed this semester. I am excited to see what happens this time around at school. But I'm hoping I get the internship in Ireland so that this will be my last semester. It is such a great opportunity and I really feel I will do anything to get it. I just hope my family will understand and support me.

The classes today were simple considering it was the first day but I know this is going to be a hard semester. I hope I still have time for seeing Andrew and my friends. Also working will be a priority since I will need money to pay for the internship. Full time school and part time working is overload. Its going to be hectic but hopefully starting this blog will help me stay sane.